TAGGED!!

I've been TAGGED by Cayman!! =.= Don't like. it. Lol. Nope I don't ubt I'll just follow the rules and do it. Lol. Alright.. Here goes..

1. What are your goals/dreams?
- My goals.. Would be to study Architecture the most now.
- My dreams.. Would be able to travel around the world.. :)

2. Happiest things in your life are?
- Being with him ;)
- As well as my family and friends

3.Favourite colour(s)?
- Black, Purple, Red

4. Do you have a crush now? How did you know each other?
- Yes! :) But I'm not gonna say how we met each other. :)

5. Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
- Where? UK. To further my studies.

6. What is your weakness that you can't stand the most?
- I really don't like most of the insects.. =S

7. What will you do if you face something sad?
- What will I do?? I turn to him. :)

8. Most afraid to lose..?
- Most? Family, friends and especially him

9. What is the practical target within this 5 years?
- Practical target for what? Well I like to see myself on the road to becoming an Architect :)

10. Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
- Yes.. Love yourself and be loved.. :)

11. Favorite song(s)?
- for now. It's I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

12.What weird things that you wish to happen?
- Err.. Weird? I thought I was already weird. Lol.

13.What age do you wish to live until?
- Well.. It's up to God to decide and whether did we take good care of ourslefs. :)

14. You hate which type of people the most?
- Backstabbers. But I don't really care much. I don't hate people. :)

15. Are you satisfied with your life?
- Well.. Currently yes.. :D

16. What do you wish to do the most now?
- Complete an art project now

17. Prefer to be alone or within a group?
- Sometimes alone yet sometimes within a group

18. If you can have a wish, what will you wish for?
- Umm.. Umm.. I wish for.. a car.. :)

19. What are you doing at this moment?
- Currently doing this thingy.. =.=

20. Have you found yourself?
- Well.. Yes I can say so.. :)

The five people I wish to know more about:
- Hsu Yan
- Angela
- Tomoko
- Mun Wei
- who ever that reads this :)


by yuNz

好想她

一年前的今天，她喜欢我，我对她有好感，就这样两个人自然而然的在一起。我喜欢和她牵手的那种感觉，她的手很小，搂着她的时候能给她幸福的感觉。每一次出去玩，走着走着，她总会忽然问她：

“可以吗？”

当我在思考到底可以什么东西的时候，她就会敲我的头说：

“只要我说可以不可以时，你就要看着我认真说可以！”

那时，我就会对她做鬼脸吐舌头地说：

“才不理你呢！”

她就会追着我打，但只要我一搔她痒，最后她也只能抱着我向我求饶。我们一直都过得很快乐，直到她迟到的那一天。那天，我们说好了在台北车站见面，然后就去看电影。但，我一直等，一直等，就是等不到她。我急死了，打手机，打她家里都没有人接。在心急之中，忽然看到一个人影从远方出现，是我熟悉的她。她看起来脸色好苍白，有点朦胧，感觉她很急促的要跑向我。

在我们眼神交会之际，看到她的嘴里好像要说什么，正想问她的时候，突然“唰”的一声！她朝我直扑而来，在我接触到她的一瞬间，只感到好像进入了灵异世界一般的违和感。面上一暖，是滴水，流进嘴巴的时候，我才知道那是咸咸的泪。在转眼间，她穿过我，一转身就再也看不到她了。一切不真实的之中，那滴泪深深地让我心不祥的感觉油然而生！

我急急忙忙的越过车站大厅，到对面的计程车侯车处想招台车去她家。然而，当我一越过车站门口，在人群之中我看到她，她皱着眉头苦笑着挥手示意我不要过去，我飞奔过去想靠近她，抱着她，却在出没的瞬间，她消失不见了。

《靠近》

顿时听见刺耳的急救声响起，看着刺眼的警示灯消失在对街，我摊开围观群众，一些路人仍让议论纷纷，指指点点。站在那里，我看见一个我送给她的钥匙圈，是那种星星形状。但现在她的却沾满了鲜血，我呆住了！我没有勇气再往前走，呆立了许久才向前问警察伯伯刚刚是怎么了。警察伯伯看着我又看着手中的皮夹说：

“先生，你是马小萱的男朋友吗？你可以确认下身份吗？”

他就把手上的皮夹拿给我，我看着我那熟悉不过的皮夹。颤抖着点了点头，点下头的同时眼泪就跟着滑下，坐在警车的我就好像痴呆一半，脑中想起相识的时候，我们的一切就好像跑马灯一样转个不停！一到医院，我冲进急诊室里看着她的身上扎满了管子，护士小姐一直忙着做任何能延续她的生命的事。我走过去握着她的手，她感觉到我来了，顽皮的吐了舌头就好像小孩子闯祸一样。

“对不起，以后不能陪你看电影了。。现在，我好像睡觉。。好冷。。好累！”

我听着她说话，声音虽小声一点，不过让我听的心痛、心算、很痛。我亲了她的额头，就再也止不住泪水。她吃了举起手拭去我的泪，那时她最后一次感受到她的体温。接着，我被护士扶到长椅上，看着电击的她，我压抑不住的情绪，让我昏了过去。

醒来后，伯母递给我她最后写给我的信，泪水让我看不清内容，一直到了最后一句，我才看清楚：

“娶我，可以吗？”

亲爱的，你听到了没有？这次我会乖乖说：

“可以。”

虽然她离开了，但我还是永远爱她：虽然看不到她，但我永远知道她在；虽然她没有给我永远，但她永远住在我的心里；虽然时间没有让我证明我给她的爱，但我想时间不够用来证明我爱她永远。多希望在听到一次她问我：

“可以吗？”

无论她问我什么，都让我抱着她在她的耳边说：

“可以。”

《亲爱的》

命运齿轮的运转，往往让人感到一阵措手不及。可能一转身，你便就此失去你一生的挚爱。然而，一次的偶遇可能让你再次遇到似曾相似的那个人。这一切的一切，似乎正在诉说着你和她是紧紧相扣吧。。

雅风秀云，穹苍一丝淡蓝。在这霏霏的早晨里，我开始过着同样的生活，跑着陈旧的韵律，悄然的滑出熟悉的生活轨道。每一天，我都笑脸迎人，如常作息。那就是紧握着不陌生的方向盘，驾着屡见的红衬黄计程车，奔驶于繁碌的市区。

在街拐一处，一副熟见的手式令我停下车来。她是一名女孩，郁直的长发，手提叠式饭盒，简单，朴素的美。看到她，我宁静已久的内心世界，就因她而起了很大的涟漪！我忍不住再看了她一眼，而她也不回避的对我笑了笑：然后扬起细细的眉毛，轻轻的对我眨了眼。我失态的说：

“小萱，是你吗？”

我有点发抖的声音在这寂寞的计程车散开了。她点点头，然后用这神似的神情跟说话方式对我说：

“对啊。。我叫小萱。。”

她天真地说着，她不知道她很像我失去的她。她的面孔、动作、说话方式几乎都一模一样。这时，我知道我真的很想她，非常想她。

“麻烦你在我到明晨工地。”她细说。

我给了她一个浅浅带着歉意的微笑，说：

“好的。”

《好想她》

车里，一片寂寞。我从仰后镜凝望着她，这时我看见她的细唇微动，是在哼歌。我随手将音量调高，是李圣杰《你走了》。

“还在寻找 曾经每一次你对我的好 还在祈祷 最爱的你回到我的怀抱 听不到 你不知道我有多煎熬 没有预兆 其实我想你一分一秒 守着你的誓言 风在笑 抱着你的回忆 泪在掉 爱国的每一秒 都是煎熬 难道你真的忍心忘就忘掉 守着你的誓言 风在笑 抱着你的回忆 泪在掉 舍不得你走掉 你走了 ”

她似乎了解我的心意，向我报以和煦一笑。那首歌，也是小萱喜欢听的一首歌。歌曲播到这，绕了最后一条街，就到达她的目的地。她递给了计程费给我，就开了车门走了。在车里，我久久没开动我的车。不久，我收拾了心情后开了口：

“是你吗？小萱，真的是你吗？”

说完，我的眼神停滞在她的背影，倏然埋伏心恻的悲痛在猛然苏醒，我失去理智的从车里跑出往她狂奔。我在她的后面急拉住她的手，问了一句：

“小萱，你好吗？你过的好吗？”

她在我说完后眨了下眼，然后用稚嫩的声音对我说：

“我很好。。一直过得很好。。”

“谢谢你。。”

眼泪终于忍不住滑落了，在同一路上，我们擦肩而过之后，天空真得很美，很美。

《擦肩而过》

“小萱，我带花来看你了，我预定的戒指收到了，我想尺寸是刚刚好。但我把戒指收起来，我一点都不想戴，因为不是你亲手帮我戴上。你一定觉得我很任性，对不对？我就是任性啊！每天的晚上，我都做梦梦到你，我梦见我们俩结婚，那时候的我们都很开心，因为我想你没有死。醒来之后，我一直打你的电话，电话已经没有人使用了，我才知道你真的离开我了。今天，我以为你回来了，不再离开我的身边，可是，想了又想你早就已经去世了一年多了，不可能会回来。我是个笨蛋，一个还放不开你的笨蛋，你闯进了我的生活，然后又离开我，我只是不知道该怎么办？你说我该怎么办？我要怎么办？”

空旷的山坡上，是小萱的安息地。我洒了满满的银纸在她的坟前，尽情地挥散着，没有多说话，无尽的思念似乎希望透过手上的银纸传达给她知道。这时，一道弱光划破了静僻的夜空，在消失于寂寞的长空，是流星。稍纵即逝的流星，给了多少少男，少女无数的遐想，美丽的憧憬。

她对我说过，流行是堕落的天使，具有实现所有愿望的魔力。而我却对她说，绚丽的闪耀流星，努力的从好几光年远的宇宙，为的是带着幸福，来到地球，带给人们希望。我知道，她一定在天堂默默为我祷告，祈求上帝让我看到今天的流星，好让我知道她想要我好好为着希望活下去。

“小萱，你放心吧！我会为了你好好活下去，你给我的讯息，我收到了，希望你一定要快乐。”

《光年》

写故事的人: 芩子

制作故事的人：晓芬，清清



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2nd episode of "Bang? Gosh.."

XX This is the second part from the previous entry of " Bang? Gosh.." Well.. Previously I mentioned that Nissan car got into an accident. And so.. My father sent the car for service. Maybe for a week or just 3-4 days. So that's about how long my father will have no car to drive. But.. A friend borrowed him a car. A 4WD.

that's my brother by the way. =.=

Hahaha.. Seriously it's so BIG! Lol. And my father said it was pretty hard to drive. Lol. Anyway.. It's just for two days only that my father drove that 4WD. Lol. Okies.. So here are somemore pictures on my father's car.. Lol.

Yeah you can see the hood is bended already. Lol. That was during the night.

I don't really know whether you guys can see this picture properly.. But there are cracks on it. Especially more visible after you turn to the back of it.. Lol. So alright. After the Repair.. The car looked new again. Lol. Wow. It's like you can't tell the difference.. Lol.




Well?? Lol. ut it's so nice to get the car back so fast. Haha.. I don't really like that 4WD. Lol. So huge and it's old and it's not really nice inside.. Lol. Well.. :) Still.. drivable. Lol. So.. Thats all for now. As I promised.. This is the updates about the minor accident the happened related to the previous post of "Bang? Gosh.."

So cheers everyone.. :)

Pie Promotion!!

XX Hey friends.. And who ever that reads this..

Come down to Citi Super, in Plaza Damas, at Sri Hartamas this weekend as well as the next weekend. There will be a pie promotion going on in that supermarket. Please do come.. Well.. That's if you are free.. :) Free pie tasting.. :) And of course.. Yours truly here.. will assist you once again in the upcoming pie promotion this weekend plus next weekend. Plus we also have Lagsania. :) Yup. Garfield's favourite food. But don't you dare bring Garfield along with you or he'll finish everything!! Lol.

Tasty pies waiting for you to try them out!! Come on over and don't be shy alright?? :) Promotion starting tomorrow so what are you waiting for?? Hope to see you there >.<

ps : so sorry I do not have any pictures for you guys out there to have a look. But don't worry. I guarantee you that the pies are really good :) So just come over to Plaza Damas, Sri Hartamas alright?? Thanks!! XD

Cheers :D

I NEED TO BLOG!!

XX YES!! I NEED TO BLOG!! OMG.. But all I can do now is just to write a few lines here and there.. every now and then.. Gosh. I've got pictures waiting for me to post them up here but I just don't have the time.. :( Sobs.. Anyways.. See.. I've gotta run now.. Ciaoz.

Gosh.. Depression..

It's coming.. :(

Bang? Gosh..

XX Alright.. It's not like everyday you get involve in an accident. Lol. Anyway.. It's just gonna be a short story here on what happened. My father's car.. Yes my father's car got into an accident. Lol. Ok. not a big accident but it was just a minor accident. Well of course it's not the car that got itself in an accident. Lol. My father was behind the wheel and yeah it was his wrong. Banged into the front car. He wasn't looking in front. Jammed the brakes, Car skidded. BANG. There you go. A damaged car. =.= Gosh. Anyway.. Not to worry.. Err.. yeah. Nothing much to worry I guess except the cost of repairing it AND what will be his transportation when the car is in for service. :( Gosh. Anyway.. I took some pictures.. It's quite bad. Banged into a Red Proton Iswara. Near Tesco. Yeah we were on the way to Tesco.







And err.. by the way.. I don't know whether you guys will be able to see the picture clearly but I'll try to upload a better picture as soon as possible alright?? :)

Anyway.. I've got to run.. Toodles guys! :)

Hope I do have other things to blog about soon >.<

I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

Well you dawned on me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love, love,
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family.
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a face and I laughed
I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanitys and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family (2nd time: I like happy family)
It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

ps : I'm yours :)

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Listening to: Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
via FoxyTunes

Cheer 2008

XX Yes.. last weekend was the Cheer 2008 competition. 12th and 13th July 2008.



Well.. It's a normal event for us where cheer leading teams from all over Malaysia comes to Bukit Jalil Putra stadium to compete for the semi-finals and the finals. So for both days, Saturday and Sunday, about 43 teams showed up. I think. Haha.. I was not there on Saturday. And.. ! I went there late on Sunday! :( Well.. Obviously I missed a few great teams like Dynamitez from SMK DJ as well as others like my secondary school cheer leading team Blitzerz.. Lol Sad though. Haha.. Anyway.. There were obviously more people on Sunday compared to Saturday as it was the finals. I managed to watched a few teams performed and one all boys team. I can't remember their name though but they were awesomely good! Yes.. Newcomers.. and practically WOW! Haha.. Well.. So it's not really a surprise that they bagged the Newcomer Award. :) Well.. I enjoyed the show.. but not much to say as I missed most of the teams performance.. So all I did was to wait until the end to hear the results.


Champions - Shirtliff from SM Seri Bintang Utara
1st Runner-up - Dynamitez from SMK DJ
2nd Runner-up - Stunners All-Boys from Sri KDU


And wow. I mean.. WOW! Shirtliff bagged 3awards this year.. One for err.. Best Showmanship, One is the champion and.. another.. I did not hear what was it. Haha.. :) Anyway.. Enjoy the videos here. It's a little blur I think.. =S

Titans

Vulcanz All-Girls

Cyclonez

Cyrens

Stunners All-Girls

Calyx

Stunners All-Boys

Dynamitez

Shirtliff

Alright.. Here are some videos from the 1st day or the 2nd day of the competition.. The place was totally packed with people!! Lol And there were other events going on as well around that area so.. Lol. wow. But yeah. cheer.. It was always fun to see those performances, cheer for your team as well as listen to the host. Oh yeah.. I forgot to mentioned huh? The host is the same, that will be Jien. There's another guy but I dun't know who he is so.. I'm so sorry about that. Hehe.. Lol. Ah yes.. Last but not least.. Charm All-Stars :) They ARE GOOD! >.<

Charm All-Stars

alright then.. enjoy the videos and you guys can find more at you know which site.. :)

http://www.youtube.com/


There.. The Dynamitez Macot. :) I find that amusing last year.. X)

I hope i can get pictures soon.. :)

Lets hope next year's Cheer 2009 i would not be late again =S
Cheers.. >.<

For Cayman :)

Xx Alrighty.. Hahaha.. This is for Cayman. Hahaha.. Well.. As well as those people who does not know how to read Chinese. I'll shorten it. Because I can't really translate the whole story into ENGLISH words.. Lol. So I'll just write out what this story is all about. :)

To start off.. This story is about this girl that likes this guy but he's not always around when he promised the girl that he'll take care of her. That he won't hurt her.. But yet the guy went away, leaving the girl all alone where she cried every time she thinks of the guy. In the end, that girl had an accident and was in a critical condition where this guy finally came back. A little pathetic here though but its just a story. Well.. Hahaha.. I'm not much of a translator or what.. Lol. Anyway.. hope you guys out there reading this understands what I'm saying here. Haha..

Cheers.. >.<

男孩回来了

(女孩的写诗)

As you stand there, empty-handed

Or have you too turned from this world?

Were there be Two instead of One?

Who knows, but promised,

Behold you, smile and alter and prattle and…

<<牵牵牵手>>

如果那一天我没有特意在春来的风逗留，已经开始带着湿湿的黏感的风，像夏天像刚刚经过海面，我注意到了，所以停下脚步，想等这阵风穿越这座城市的暖流。

“我想知道答案，可以告诉我吗？”

不 是故意偷听，不过那女孩的声音却能吸引我，因为女孩的脸蛋不管多还看，一旦看多了，不单会觉得腻，而且还会因怎么看都一样而让人反胃；但声音却只能是可遇 不可求。况且，声音。。是所有情感的真实透镜，永远是真实的，不能做假。而就在课室的走廊外，女孩得天独地厚地拥有这样的声音，问着眼前的男孩。声沉而浓 厚情感的语调。

男孩靠在墙上，头仰着天，仿佛在沉思。眼里的流沙迷惘而深邃，让人抓不透的情。他紧紧握着拳头，却又放松。同一个动作，重复了好几次。

“我。。。不会在伤害你。我。。。会报护你。。”

男孩终于开口了，像是在宣誓般。但女孩只是背对着他，仿佛只有落寞，没有欢喜。过了许久，女孩转向了他，但我却看不清她的表情。她那头的白头依然强烈，她的肩线上游璀璨的天光。女孩不再答应，只低下了头。沉默，让两人陷进无奈中。

“我说的是真的。从今天起，换我来守护你。”

男孩走走近了她，却意外瞧见她眼里的那一丝丝的银线。怜惜的酸处瞬间化开。想举起手，环绕她仿佛扛下了几千重的细小肩膀，但却当下不敢有所妄为。

“惠。。。” 心疼着她的男孩，只能轻轻地唤起女孩的名字。

“是种安慰吗？是纯粹只是想要慰藉吗？”

女孩抬起了头，隔着眼镜片的眼睛，深邃的让人心动。她望着男孩，仿佛期待着她想要的答复。有一段时间，我读不出男孩眼底那缕错愕到底是什么意思。但原来，男孩还是没答腔。女孩眼里的失望，只能想泪水般，摇摇欲坠，跌进了无声的空间。那是种寂寞。

“不管怎样，我都接受。对不起。这是。。。我最后一次给你依靠。”

语毕，女孩缓缓走近了男孩的胸膛，轻轻地抱了他。我发现她一直在发抖，不知什么原因，但我想，那绝不是天气的关系。满生涩地，她就像从前那样，无数次地只能成为男孩失落的依靠。男孩给她的心痛与回忆，她想划下句点。

“不是安慰，这。。。不是。我能确定，惠。这不是种安慰。。”

男孩终于举起了臂膀，把女孩的弱小身子埋进胸膛。女孩征住了，泪水部在固执。一直以为的安慰，真的结束了吗？

我转过身，不想再聆听他们之间的谈话。因为我知道，接下来的路之剩空虚，当男孩与女孩的回忆开始，所属我的回忆，只是空壳。没有核心。

我从不记得回忆也需要勇气，那也是因为喜欢你的心意，也是因为不想辜负所有岁月的存在而来的。我们, 牵手 一直走到最后, 好吗？

<<情人节>>

在晴朗午后，天空开始有了哀伤的情绪。阴沉沉得让人觉得心里所有的哭诉都想随着即将下临的雨水一起流逝。我就坐在女孩和男孩的面前，眼底泛着悲伤。但我的存在是虚拟的。他们只是低着头，看着各自的书。我看得出，任何一方的思想其实早已飞走了。

男孩突然转过身面对着女孩。欲言又止，只轻轻地把手放在女孩头上，抚摸着。我清楚看出男孩眼里的那份怜惜的悸动。两人一直逃避的问题，即将开幕。男孩要离开了.

(男孩离开后的日子)

“逸，你好吗？好想哭，但却不敢哭。因为答应你不哭了。我想你。抱抱好吗？”

看 着女孩流着泪，把刚写好的字条，慢慢对折，放进了一个粉红色的布袋。布袋里头已装了不少的字条。女孩真傻，每每写字条都会哭泣。固执的泪水沾湿了字条，女 孩就会把字条收在另一个盒子，不想把沾有泪水的字条给男孩。不想让男孩心疼。然后，拿新的纸开始写新的。每一张的内容都不一样，但字字句句都包含女孩的思 念。

因为承诺，让女孩开始等待，开始压抑。哭，不都是女孩的权力吗？可男孩，却要女孩不许哭。剥夺了女孩哭泣的权力。

我心疼着，却不能上前给予安慰。女孩，一个傻瓜就这样每天哭着入睡。受委屈时，也只能对空气说话。心里却希望远方的男孩能听见。但，我心想，男孩有没忘了女孩呢？

还记得情人节那天，女孩守着电话一整夜，期待着男孩或许会打个电话回来。但，失望却成为她当天唯一的陪伴。女孩那天还发着高烧，但男孩却不在。

只见女孩，吃力地拿起笔和纸，简单地写下了一句，便带着眼角泪水的残余，缓缓睡去。

“逸，我病了。发高烧。。没人理我，你也不理我了。。。”

我躺在女孩身边，望着女孩红彤的脸，心里暗骂男孩的不是。

女孩在字条里，一句也没提到情人节，我想，她一定是不想男孩日后自责。女孩的用心，像是夜里那蟋蟀，无怨无悔的为寂寞的夜，添上一点的存在感。

每个周末，男孩传简讯给女孩。但，男孩却好忙。明明只有一天的时间，却啬于抽出时间多陪陪女孩。女孩也体谅地等待男孩放下工作。如果，真的可以重新选择，女孩还会选择等待吗？

曾经有人这么问过女孩，女孩想了很久。只见她笑了笑，说道：“会，我还是会等他。。。因为我爱他。”

简单一句我爱他，让周围的人都沉默下来。女孩的笑容，让人觉得女孩的傻劲让她幸福，但有谁懂女孩在夜里已经哭过无数次。

我想，对女孩来说，幸福就是寂寞。

我 以为，谈恋爱不比最头疼的三涵数困难；我以为，在曲折的感情最终也会流入幸福的大海；我以为，我的以为是如此天经地义。谁知道，我的以为最后还只是以为。 人在脆弱的时候，往往会忽略身边还有许多比悲伤重要的事物。连回忆都失去勇气的我，满脑子想着，是最后了。我们的承诺，会不会是永远的呢？

<<越爱越难过>>
房间的灯打开了却也无法照亮黑夜。女孩缓缓走近窗口，关上了它，也像是关上了自己的心。还被风吹得很冷的电话响着，但在另一端却空荡荡的让女孩心久久都开始怀念那个夏天，那个他们一起度过的时光。

“那会是我们爱情国度里最美的时间吗？可。。我还想要更多的甜蜜，只与你逸。可。。。是我太贪心了吗？给你压力了吗？”女孩自言自语地说着。就在今夜，女孩对男孩说出了心里压抑很久的话。

“我不告诉你我的生活，因为我觉得这里没有你，我的每一天都很难熬。可你却不一样。没有我，你更快乐了。逸，我的情话在多，你也不曾当一回事。我的信息，永远只是有往无回。是你的冷，造成让你不习惯的我。”

我看着女孩一边望这电话，一边紧握双拳。她哭得好惨，仿佛心被掏空了一样。

对，我想或许女孩爱上男孩的那一刻，她的心注定被掏空。空虚，是那不懂得如何去哄女孩的心，一直以来所给的。虽然如此，可女孩却还在原地等待。

如果还能遇见，女孩说她希望不要再后退，自己哭红了双眼，但她的心却还留在原地。

是最后了吗？女孩想离开了。

我看着女孩闭着红红的双眼，顿时心里紧紧一缩。这么久了，我才第一次有想哭得冲动。女孩。男孩。他们。。会有未完的故事吗？我不知道，但却知道不久后是未来的那天。

<<为你写诗>>

永 远，包含着曾经是现在的过去，曾经是未来的现在，还有无限无限延伸的未来。女孩对男孩说，给他的爱情，让两人学习成长。但如果男孩一后不在记得女孩，那时 间便不再有任何意义。女孩不会存在于男孩的记忆中的任何一稀，甚至在“永远”里也找不到属于他们的过去，那更别说是让他们学习成长的爱情。

女孩说这些话时，男孩是多么的开心，因为男孩以为女孩，不再对未来怀抱恐惧，和男孩一起携手镇守爱情。男孩没看见，在女孩心里的那道疤痕如今越来越清晰。为了不让男孩受伤，让男孩从过去的阴影脱离，女孩一直努力给予男孩她所有的好。爱情是一种怪事,男孩的笑容是唯一宗旨.爱情是一种本事,女孩在男孩心里什么位置?为男孩,女孩做了太多的傻事.为他写诗,为他静止,为他做不可能的事,为他失去理智,但却把自己的梦隐藏起来， 去实现男孩所有的梦。

把手机关上。女孩不再等待，不在期盼。不说分手。或许不再见面。或许只是短暂的分离。但女孩心里，还是希望男孩能赶回来，至少是为了她而回来。但男孩始终没为了女孩而回来。女孩也并没有伤心落泪。

地板的东西散乱满地。我走近女孩，缓缓蹲下，捡起地上的东西。

男孩写给女孩的情书。

男孩写给女孩的字条。

男孩曾带回家的国旗。

男孩小时候的旧相片。

男孩送给女孩的吊饰。

男孩送给女孩的玩偶。

还有,男孩给女孩的回忆和失望。

“为什么你可以这样？为什么把所有的记忆都留给我呢？为什么不把回忆全带走。。？我想忘记你。。。”

女孩自言自语地睡去。

我看着女孩，无助得可怜。何必为了那男孩，而这样糟踏自己呢？不值得啊！

女孩好傻。这是我第二次流泪了。为女孩，也是为我自己。

有时候，我觉得白色是寂寞的颜色，但换个角度想；它，不也是从七才的拥挤的折射对比下而容不下纯粹的意境吗？往后的你，能在茫茫人海中看见我对你的思念吗？

<<我的自传>>

“请联络伤者的家人。我们院方会尽力抢救伤者。放心吧。”

女孩在过马路时被车意外撞伤了。那时，女孩正打算去买蛋糕。买给男孩的蛋糕。虽然男孩没回来，没联络。但女孩却想为他庆祝，男孩也不知情。

我望着浑身是血的女孩。何必呢？不值得。望得出神时，我意外发现男孩就在抢救室门外。惊恐地想望进来。

男孩回来了。我征住了。我思念的男孩回来的。真的回来了。

我走出抢救室，伸手想拥抱他。但。。。我的身体却穿了过去，触碰不到。

“萍！我回来了啊。。。我回来了。。对不起。。我爱你。。你一定要醒来。。继续我们的故事。惠。。”

男孩就这样跪在抢救室前，哭着唤着我的名字。

我急忙回到急诊室里，回到了女孩的身体，附了上去。

“鲁都。。鲁都。。”

“逸。。。。”

我感觉自己的心跳恢复了。手，开始有了知觉。

“耶~幸好。手术成功。赶快送进加护病房。”

“是”

接着，我便昏睡了。大概是离开身体太久，排徊在记忆的边原, 我的灵魂累了吧。

逸，我的逸真的回来了。我暗自庆幸。我的梦，会继续吧？

到最后，我还是放不下你。因为有你，让我有勇气去回忆，有勇气继续对生命有所期望，也期待往后的每一天。你懂吗？

写故事的人：火星人

http://www.musiclovestory.lifelogger.com

How guys express their love

XX Ok. Tel me how true can that be? For what I think.. I don't know about the guy lying on the bed thinking part or some of them, but what I can say is yes there are some very true indeed! :) And actually that's the same that goes for us girls :) True indeed! so people.. It's up to you to decide on this. Just to understand them better.. Right? Maybe.. Haha.. Enjoy >.<


When a GUY is quiet and is alone,

He's is thinking how good you're.

When a GUY is lying on his bed,

He is thinking deeply why he loves you.

When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,

He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you're.

When a GUY answers 'I'm Fine' after awhile,

He is not and feels hurts.

When a GUY keep asking you the same question,

He is wondering why you are lying.

When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,

He is wishing that you belongs to him forever.

When a GUY calls you everyday,

He miss you and wants your attention.

When a GUY wants to see you everyday,

He cares for you and want to know how are you today.

When a GUY smses u everyday,

He wants you to know he is fine.

When a GUY says I love you,

He really means it.

When a GUY says that he can't live without you,

He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.

When a GUY says 'I Miss You',

He wants to see you immeditely.